Day 12 is a little late coming to you.. Yesterday i just needed time away from the lap top. Despite these blogs being on average a 5 minute read they take at least 2 hours to write and upload the pics etc . I'm sure if I was 30 years old it would take 5 minutes but I'm not.
I've been winding down a little as I reach the end of my trip. a lot to process and let sink in about the last 2 weeks. I feel a bit sheepish sometimes as I've been on a Greek Island for two weeks, it's hardly roaming the Andes, but for me it's been a voyage of discovery about myself. Sharing it has been very cathartic and I have such deep appreciation for everyone who has taken the time to read my words.
Day 12 as you know began with a bit of a hangover. Only 1 in 2 weeks so I'll have that as a victory. I pottred for a while then joind my German friends at Rock Ink by the beach. As always I enjoyed their company and then took myself off to the neighbouring taverna. One for my daily lunch date with myself and two, to avoid the body percussion workshop that had just started in the bar.
These lunch dates with myself are something I've really come to enjoy. Just me, delicious food and my thoughts.
I enjoyed listening to the singer whilst I had my lunch. One thing I love about Scala at this time of year is that there is always someone singing or playing an instument. It's a fabulous vibe.
Later I spent some time alone on the beach, watched the sun go down and did some releasing work on the fear that I have identified as being one of my biggest blockages moving forward.
Much healing has begun here on the beach it is here I have felt closest to the Goddess and have had many deep conversations with her.
So here I am full of a renewed sense of self-worth and a deep understanding of the parts of me that are crying out to be healed. My 60s are fast approaching. Bring them on I say. I'm genuinely excited about what comes next.
I had a little wander around the Village taking in the festival and the wide diversity of women from around the World.
Is the festival my cup of tea ? In honesty although I will definately return to Scala next year where I've already organised doing some workshops I won't be buying a wristband for all the activities next time. I've done less than a third of the things I intended to do and I'm at complete peace with that.
For me, the necessary healing process couldn't start in a group setting. I feel overwhelmed and anxious with too many people, experiences, and activities in succession. This might not change, and I'm okay with that. While I've enjoyed participating in various things, both solitude and spending time with my wonderful German friends have been integral to my healing journey.
Do I believe the festival is truly valuable, significant, and fantastic? Absolutely. Witnessing numerous women having a joyful time in this unique and safe environment is amazing. Particularly touching are the older women who vividly recall a time when being a lesbian wasn't always safe or accepted.
Every time I bump into Adriana, the New Yorker who came out at 71, she has been radiant with happiness. This, to me, underscores the immense value of this annual Women's festival.
I then came back to the house to spend a wonderful evening with my Tarot cards and the Moon.
I asked 5 questions of the cards and got 5 profound answers that I will share when I am back in Blighty. It was one of the most profound readings i've done for myself ever.
These have been such precious times , I will miss this little house and patio. I've come to terms with a lot of stuff here just me and the Moon.
Apologies for the quality of this video, I've not gotten used to my new camera at all yet. i saw some wild symbols in the clouds however and I'd love to know what you can see.
my next blog will be when I get home as I will be travelling all day tomorrow.
I'm sad to leave but also really happy to be coming home.
Sending you much appreciation, love and blessings Bex xxx
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